Wednesday, March 24, 2010

She Speaks Conference

Just a few days after my husbands death, I began journaling again. It was like healing salve to my broken heart. I began to feel God calling me to something new and different. I first learned of the She Speaks Conference through the Proverbs 31 magazine. I read about it and thought to myself, that would be fun and boy, could that open some doors for me. But, being a single mommy, I wasn't sure I could take the time away or spend the money, especially on myself.

God has been slowing mending my heart and I'm closer to Him through this nightmare than I ever thought possible. I've been looking for "signs" and open doors that clearly show me what my next step should be. I just spoke this past weekend at church on Living a Legacy Worth Leaving. It felt natural and "right" for me. I feel like God is calling me to teach to a different age group, something bigger than the preschool crowd I currently serve. I came home that evening and got an e-mail from A Widow's Might that linked to She Speaks and a scholarship opportunity. I felt as if God was speaking directly to me in that moment. The opportunity to win a scholarship to this incredible training would mean the world to me and my 2 children. I am so eager to share my story, offer hope, and lead others out the the dark valleys to His light. Whether I'm chosen or not, I'm blessed. I know that everything is according to God's plan, but I would truly love the opportunity to meet with other gifted writers and speakers who love God as much as I do. I'd love to show my children that when you step out in faith, God will always meet you there. Here's to new dreams...

The waves

Loosing my husband and father-in-law back in September, followed 2 weeks later by my grandpa, then grandma 2 months after that and finally by best friends husband just 3 weeks ago, I've been hit by wave after wave. I've been in valley after valley after valley, but each time, I've had to choose hope. I've learned to be grateful to God in ALL circumstances. I'm not saying that it's easy, but I know that I'm a child of the King and one day I'll spend eternity with Him. I'll be reunited with my husband, family and friends. I have a lot to be grateful for. I'm trusting God to pick up the shards of my shattered dreams and make a new mosiac. One that is filled with hope, peace and love.

I'm anxious to see where He is leading me next. I'm feeling led to speak and share with others the hope that can only come from Him. I'm ready for the waves to ripple into an amazing new adventure and I'll hold His hand the entire way.